Tuesday, January 10, 2006

Is 35 too early for a mid-life crisis?


I'm not sure if it's my age or what. Maybe it's that I've never lived in the same place this long while being with the same person and pretty much having the same routine. I feel like if there were paint on the soles of my shoes and the tires of my car, and it marked where I went everyday.... it would look like I don't deviate too much. There would be a track back and forth from work, perhaps the odd offshoot, and my footprints would form a messy little track through the house and the yard, pretty much showing me doing the same things...everyday. It's as if every year is becoming the same. I think it started to bother me last year, when we drove to vacation, it dawned on both of us that we probably say the exact same things to each other at the exact same places at the exact same time every year. For example...every year, in Virginia, as we are about to go across the Chesapeake Bay Bridge Tunnel, my husband asks me how long it is, and I say '17 miles', and then he asks 'how many tunnels', and I say 'two', and then I tell him how many people died while building it (110) and then we both say 'we said this same thing last year'. While I was putting away Christmas Decorations this year, I got the same feeling. I do the same thing every year, in the same order. And maybe since time seems to be going faster, it really seems like it was just yesterday that I was doing this exact same thing. I need to get out more. Shake things up. Start using my left hand or something cause everything just seems the same. I shouldn't complain I suppose. There are probably lots of people that simply aspire to routine because their lives are so unpredicatable and they don't know where they are sleeping next or where their next meal is coming from. But still, I need a change.

5 Comments:

Blogger Liz said...

Ha ha! I was just thinking the same thing this morning when I was taking out mugs and bowls for breakfast. I felt like I just did this....yesterday! And then when I think about the growing season and how it's peas, then beans, then tomatoes to process... it all seems the same.

Maybe it's because I haven't been on a vacation in 4 years...

2:13 PM  
Blogger meresy_g said...

yes,

It's a wierd feeling. And it all seems to go so scarily fast. Maybe you do need a vacation. But, per my example, even that slips right into the cycle. Very strange.

3:13 PM  
Blogger EFB said...

It's deja vu all over again. I think routine can be important and scary because it acts as a marker for the passage of time.

Think of your blog as deviating from the routine!

4:26 PM  
Anonymous Judith said...

When is mid-life these days, by the way? In my parents day, it was age 30...but with life expectancy longer & 50 the new 30...??? I periodically think about the reruns of my life--that's when I know I need to do something new & different. Have you ever seen the British TV (BBC) program "A Week of Dressing Dangerously?"....sounds crazy, but maybe dressing wild for a week could jar the mid life crisis feeling (or is it the winter doldrums?).

8:34 PM  
Blogger meresy_g said...

Good idea Judith. Next week I will wear things that I would not usually wear. Maybe a haircut too. Something different. And it probably isn't mid-life, but more likely cabin-fever. Nothing much to do, so everything seems repetitive. I should just enjoy it and rest up in anticipation of all the work to be done in spring and summer, which never all gets done.

10:07 AM  

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